A Colour Symphony

, 149–150

Abjection

, 86, 130

Abyssal noise

, 76–77, 83–86

Acceptance

, 32, 40–41

Acrophobia

, 20–21

Affect

, 126–127

Affirmation

, 6–7

Andante con sordino

, 23

Andante di molto

, 23

Anger

, 32

Angst, experience of

, 102–103

Another Side of Bob Dylan (song)

, 178

Anthology

, 149–150

‘Anti-Filicide Toolkit’

, 125–126

Anticipating death

, 102

Anticipation

, 4–5

of death

, 64–65

Anxiety

, 102

Apophasis

, 53

Apophatic mysticism

, 52

Apophatic theology

, 50

Approaching death

, 33

optimism in

, 52

Ars moriendi

, 8–9

Artworks

, 103–104

Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD)

, 112–113

Attention deployment

, 135

‘Attitudinal barriers’

, 130

Auferstehungssymphonie

, 33–34

Authentic Being-one’s-Self

, 98

Autistic Self-Advocacy Network (ASAN)

, 125–126

Autoethnography

, 61–63, 93–94

Ave Verum Corpus

, 27–28

Awakening theme

, 39

B-flat minor chord

, 35–36

Bach, J.C. Sinfonia in Eb major

, 21–23, 25

Bach, J.S.

on deathbed

, 8–10

and sacred cantatas

, 3–4

Bach-Werke-Verzeichnis (BWV)

, 3–4

Bargaining

, 32, 38–39

awakening theme

, 39

resurrection theme

, 39

Bataille, Georges

, 50

interest in death

, 57–58

Becoming process

, 114

Beethoven, Piano Sonata no. 14

, 18

Being and Time (Heidegger)

, 92

‘Believer’ (song)

, 135–136

Bereavement theory

, 159–160

Black metal

, 57

death sensationalised

, 50–51

theory

, 50, 53

Black Metal, Trauma, Subjectivity and Sound

, 82–83

Bleeding, The (album)

, 77–78

Blekkmetal (documentary)

, 51

Bliss, Arthur

, 146–147, 153, 155

and Great War

, 147–149

Body-soul

, 12

Cancer treatment

autoethnography

, 61–62

chemotherapy and radiation jams

, 64–71

listening to music

, 62

Canonisation of hero

, 173

Catharsis

, 149–150

Celebration

, 7

Chemotherapy

, 64–71

‘Chimes of Freedom’

, 178

Chronic illness

, 110–111

Cisnormativity

, 93–94

Cognitive Behavioural Therapy

, 131

Cognitive change method

, 135

Commemoration

, 149–150

Consolation

, 86

Contemporary funeral music

, 160

Continuing bonds

, 162

emotions and

, 164–166

funeral music and

, 163–167

Coping

, 131

Corporeality

, 112

Corpse paint

, 80

‘Crucifixion’ (Ochs)

, 172, 181

d/Deaf society

, 129

D’entre les morts

, 20

Dancing

, 135

Das Klagende Lied

, 37

Dasein

, 92, 106–107

Dawn of the Black Hearts, The (album)

, 50–51

Death

, 57–58, 75, 146

anticipation of

, 64–65

anxiety research

, 64–65

Bach and sacred cantatas

, 3–4

Bach on deathbed

, 8–10

in black metal

, 50

cut through time

, 7–8

embodiment of

, 18

enoughness

, 14–15

and experience of angst

, 102–103

experience of request as

, 92–93

final aria

, 7

as form of negation

, 50

metal

, 86

metaphorical

, 54–55

middle aria

, 6–7

opening aria

, 4–5

past soundworlds, embodied

, 10–12

permeating membrane

, 12–13

recitative

, 5–7

Ruina

, 109–115

stages of dealing with

, 32

studies

, 146–147

Death, Ritual and Belief (Davies)

, 146

Deleuzian cycle of becoming

, 94

Denial

, 36

Horn Call

, 36

and isolation

, 32

Depression

, 32, 39–40

Lament motive

, 40

Depressive suicidal black metal (DSBM)

, 82–83

Des Knaben Wunderhorn

, 33–34

Diegetic music

, 18, 23

Disability

, 125–126

emotions and

, 128–130

liberation

, 126

Disbelief

, 33

Disorganisation-Despair

, 32

Disposedness

, 96–97

Don Giovanni

, 18–19

Doomed sublimation

, 83–86

Doxorubicin

, 64–65

Dream of Gerontius

, 149

Drone metal

, 83–84

Drum-Taps

, 152

Dual process model

, 162–163

Dziady

, 39–41

Emotion regulation

, 126–128

Emotional regulation, music and

, 130–137

Emotions

, 126–128

and continuing bonds

, 164–166

and disability

, 128–130

Enoughness

, 14–15

Eternal life

, 53–54

Eteronormativity

, 93–94

Eurovision Song Contest

, 167

Exclamation

, 4–5

Experience

of angst

, 102–103

with other entities

, 93–94

of request as death

, 92–93

Experiencing continuing bonds

, 164

Exploratory study

, 160–161

Expressing continuing bonds

, 164

Extreme metal

, 75

abject

, 79–83

abjection

, 86

abyssal noise

, 83–86

consolation

, 86

necrophilia

, 76–79

necrophobia

, 76–79

sublimation

, 86

Fallen

, 102–103

Fallen-ness

, 97–98

Feelings

, 126–127, 129

Film, Mozart’s music in

I am David (film)

, 26–29

The Picture of Dorian Gray (film)

, 18–20

Vertigo (film)

, 20–26

Firebird, The (Stravinsky)

, 62, 67–70

‘Fjord of sound’ of black metal

, 84

Forgiveness

, 41–42

Fortissimo

, 37–38

Fortississimo

, 35–36

Foundations of Violence

, 76–77

Freudian theory of phobia

, 76–77

Funeral doom

, 83–84

Funeral music

, 159–160

and continuing bonds

, 163–167

relating past, present and future

, 163–164

‘Funeral rites’. See Totenfeier

Funerary rites

, 146

Gender in the Recent Works of Ridley Scott: A Feminist Analysis

, 63

‘Goodbye Little Yellow Bird’ (song)

, 18–19

Grand Declaration of War (album)

, 53–54

Grief architecture

personal philosophy

, 153–155

requiem for a dream

, 149–150

rhetoric and requiem

, 150–153

Sir Arthur Bliss and Great War

, 147–149

Grief indicators

, 33

‘Grief work hypothesis’

, 162

Habitus

, 76–77

Heart

, 12–13

Heartless (album)

, 68

Heideggerian interpretive phenomenology

, 91–92

Hermeneutic circle

, 94–98

Heroes in culture

, 172–174

Heroisation

, 174

Heteronormativity

, 93–94

Humans

, 146

I am David (film)

, 26–29

Ich habe genug

, 4–5

Iliad, The

, 149–150

Illness as Metaphor (Sontag)

, 109–110

Imagine Dragons

, 135–136

Impairment effects

, 129

In Search of Lost Time (Proust)

, 26

“Individual” self

, 113–114

Internet Movie Database (IMDb)

, 18

Interpretive phenomenology

, 92

‘Invisible death’

, 76–77

Isle of the Dead or Rhapsody on a Theme of Paganini, The

, 37

Isolation

, 36

Jantzen’s theory of western fascination

, 77

John Fitzgerald Kennedy (JFK)

, 171–172

between a hero and a political leader

, 174–176

between a person and a myth

, 180–183

assassination

, 175, 181

heroes and tales in culture

, 172–174

as real person

, 176–180

songs inspired by JFK and assassination

, 176–183

Kantian mistake concerning negation

, 55–56

Kübler-Ross, Elisabeth

, 32

change curve

, 32

model

, 33

Lament motive

, 40

Language

, 146

Leadership

, 175

Life

, 115–122

Lords of Chaos (film)

, 50–51

Loss-oriented activities

, 162

Loss-oriented coping

, 162

Mahler’s Second Symphony

, 33–34

acceptance

, 40–41

anger

, 37

back in time

, 33–35

bargaining

, 38–39

denial and isolation

, 36

depression

, 39–40

Dies Irae Sequence and Dies Irae Quotation

, 37

forgiveness

, 41–42

return of peace

, 42–43

search for meaning

, 42

shock

, 35–36

structure of finale of Symphony No. 2

, 44

Male gaze

, 100–102

Marianne, Onedelast and So True!

, 105

Materiality of death

, 50

Medium of self-consciousness

, 146

Metal music

, 78–79

Metamorphosis, The

, 111

Metaphorical death

, 54–55

Mirror Reaper (album)

, 85–86

Mood

, 96–97, 126–127

Morning Heroes (Bliss)

, 149–151, 155, 166

Mortality

, 75

Motet

, 27–28

Mozart, Wolfgang Amadeus

I am David (film)

, 26–29

Symphony No. 34 in C Major

, 22–24, 26

The Picture of Dorian Gray (film)

, 18–20

Vertigo (film)

, 20–26

Music

, 3–4, 18, 62–63, 160–161

and emotional regulation

, 130–137

emotions and continuing bonds

, 164–166

evolution of

, 64

funeral music and continuing bonds

, 163–167

during funerals

, 159–160

as healing

, 153–155

personalized funeral music

, 160

between private and public

, 166–167

theoretical framework

, 161–163

therapy for pain management

, 131

Music and the Mind (Storr)

, 22

Musical embodiment

being queer

, 98–100

death and experience of angst

, 102–103

experience of request as death

, 92–93

experience with other entities

, 93–94

Hermeneutic circle

, 94–98

male gaze

, 100–102

Marianne, Bars 15–32

, 105

Marianne, Bars 1–7

, 104

queer composition

, 103–106

Musical modulation

, 136–137

Musical rhetoric

, 146

Musical Times

, 149

Musical treatment

, 3–4

Musicology

, 146–147

Narcissistic identity wound

, 130

Narratives

, 125–126

Necrophilia

, 76–79

Necrophobia

, 76–79

Negation

black metal’s death sensationalised

, 50–51

death as

, 50, 54

death referred to at all

, 52–54

Georges Bataille’s interest in death

, 57–58

Kantian mistake concerning negation

, 55–56

metaphorical death

, 54–55

renouncing renunciations

, 51–52

Negative liturgy

, 51–52

Netherlands, contemporary funeral music in

, 160

Non-diegetic music

, 18, 23, 28

‘Non-disabled-ness’

, 93–94

Non-verbal dissociation

, 109–110

Ochs, Phil

, 172, 178–181

On Death and Dying

, 32–34

Only death is real

, 49–50

Optimism in approaching death

, 52

‘Opus ultimum’

, 10

‘Orinoco Flow’

, 163–164

‘Othering’

, 130

Otherness

, 114–115

Pallbearer (metal band)

, 67–68

‘Permeable body-souls’

, 12–13

Persephone

, 63

Personal philosophy

, 153–155

Personalized funeral music

, 160–161

Philosophical putrefaction

, 57–58

Pianississimo

, 41

Pizzicato

, 23

Pleasures of the Harbour (album)

, 181

Political image of JFK

, 174–175

Political myth

, 176

Popular music

, 171–172

Present-at-hand entities or Things

, 95

‘Prodigious listener’

, 132

Product of self-conscious mind

, 146

Psychological dying process

, 35

Putrefaction

, 57–58

Queer

, 98–100

autoethnography

, 91–92

composition

, 103–106

Radiation jams

, 64–71

Radiation treatment

, 61–62

Readiness-to-hand

, 95

Redefining Darkness (album)

, 54–55

Regulation as resurrection

, 137–138

Relief

, 148

Religion

, 153–155

Renihilation

, 111

Renihilative metamorphosis

, 111

Qua Nunc Sum

, 122–123

Rex Tremendae

, 119, 121

Ruina

, 109–115

Salva Me

, 115–122

Renouncing renunciations

, 51–52

Renunciation theory

, 52

Reorganisation

, 32

Requiem

for a dream

, 149–150

rhetoric and

, 150–153

Requiem Aeternam

, 151

Resignation

, 6–7

Resurrection

regulation as

, 137–138

theme

, 38–39, 43

‘Resurrection symphony’. See Auferstehungssymphonie

Return of peace

, 42–43

Rex Tremendae

, 119, 121

Reynolds, Dan (disabled lead singer of Imagine Dragons)

, 135–136

Rhetoric

, 146

and requiem

, 150–153

Rhythmic movement

, 135

Ruina

, 109–115

RuPaul’s Drag Race

, 67–68

Safeguarding

, 103–104

Sail Away. See ‘Orinoco Flow’

Salva Me

, 115–122

Salvation

, 7

Scheme

, 172

Schism

, 53

Scream, The (Munch)

, 35–36

Screaming the Abyss

, 62

Search for meaning

, 42

Shock

, 35–36

Shock-Numbness

, 32

Situation modification

, 133–134

Situation selection

, 133

Sixth Symphony

, 36–37

‘Somatic archaeology’

, 11–12

Soprano, Alto, Tenor Bass chorus (SATB chorus)

, 118

Sorrow and Extinction

, 68–69

Spring Offensive

, 152–153

Staccato

, 38

Stage theory

, 33

Sublimation

, 79–83, 86

doomed

, 83–86

Suspiria de Profundis

, 116

Symphonic Dances

, 37

Tales in culture

, 172–174

Tempest, The

, 147

The Picture of Dorian Gray (film)

, 18–20, 29

The Powers of Horror

, 81

The Voice

, 167

The Youth’s Magic Horn. See Des Knaben Wunderhorn

Theory of continuing bonds

, 163

Theory of grief

, 33

Thrownness

, 96–97

Total Death (album)

, 56

Totenfeier

, 33–34, 39

“Traditional forms”

, 146

Traditional medical models of disability

, 128–129

Transfigurations

, 122–123

‘Transforming bonds’

, 162–163

Un-readiness-to-hand

, 95

Until the Light Takes Us (film documentary)

, 50–51

Urlicht

, 35, 38

Vertigo (film)

, 20–26, 29

Violent desire in death metal

, 76–79

Vocal timbre

, 11–12

Voluntary

, 27–28

Vor deinem Thron

, 10

Warranted emotion

, 127

Watermark (album)

, 163–164

Western culture

, 125–126

Whiteness

, 93–94

Women’s Studies

, 63

Words against death

, 146, 156

Yearning-Searching

, 32